"As I got older my behavior started getting worse..."
I was not born into a Christian family.
Instead, I lived with my mom who was an alcoholic and two half-siblings. When I was 2, we were all taken to foster care. I was in foster care for 2 ½ years. In that time I lived in seven different houses before coming to live with the family that would adopt me, the Weeds. By the time I came to live with the Weeds, I was a scared, untrustworthy little girl. I had learned that it was not safe to trust people, and that I needed to take care of my own needs. Although the Weeds didn't originally plan to adopt any children, they took me in and poured love out on me and told me about Jesus' love for me. When the Weeds told me about Jesus it seemed like a fairy tale to me. I couldn't understand how someone I've never met could love me despite all that I've ever done. On December 31, 2001 my little sister, Hannah, and I got adopted.
As I got older my behavior started getting worse and worse until I got to the point that my parents didn't trust me. I didn't even trust myself. In June of 2010 I hit rock-bottom. I hated what I had become. My mom told me about The Fold and I went for an interview with a very negative attitude, but to my surprise when I walked through the doors of the Girls' Home, I felt a wave of love pour over me. Because of this, I decided to come. I have been at The Fold for about a year and a half, and have been through many difficult things. But I also have learned how to open up and share my emotions and admit when I am wrong. I have been challenged to think about how my actions and thoughts can affect the people around me.
The most important part of my journey at The Fold has been learning how to trust God and other people. I had a difficult time being open with people and God because I was afraid of being judged. I'm learning that if someone tells me they love me, or that they want to be my friend I can believe them. I have learned that even if people reject me, God is with me all the time, and He has given me safe people that I can trust, especially my parents. I have learned to trust my parents, and they are learning to trust me again. I can't say it has been easy, no it has been painful at times. But God has helped me realize that loving others and trusting them is so worth the risk. I've learned who I am in Christ: I am not defined by my past. I am loved and saved by God. I have also learned that I love serving people, and I want to serve the Lord by helping children like me, and giving them a second chance with their future.
My life has gone from being a life full of lies and darkness to a life full of the love of Jesus Christ.